Thinking

I'm running out of..

1. Energy- tired and underpaid..geez!
2. Patience- what's taking it so effing looongg?!
3. Reasons- why do I have to work this hard anyway? As if somebody cares.
4. Motivation- I'm just holding on because of my friends who aro oh so funny. Plus the belief the that I am not a quitter.
5. Hope- insensitivity + negligence = disappointment

I have lots of..

1. Things to do- which will eventually make my energy drop to -x ft. below sea-level.
2. Laughters- thanks to my friends. =)
3. Plans- business? check! out-of-town? check! VLs? check! wicked plans? double check! Hahaha! (insert devilish laugh here..)
4. Expectations- which are still expectations.
5. Faith- that will never be gone.

Ok, while I'm writing this, I feel so sick and my back aches really bad. I can hear my self shouting for rest and sick leave. I'm planning to use 2 or 3 of my VLs but I can see things piling up on me once I get back to work. So dismiss that makhi. I also have to attend this training-for-the-trainers thing that I can't afford to ignore. One of the agents started on me again with his controversial attitude problem which an additional burden. I just hate him. I'd rather work with a demotivated person than handle someone like him. I just hate him. He thinks I'm a bitch, sure I am. I don't like him. That's all I know.

Sometimes, I can't help to ask the one up there why I have to go through all this and I just heard him reminding me not to question his will and that just shut me up.

Maybe I should be thankful because these trials and hardships actually made me stronger. I was never this brave to face the demands of life. To welcome all the challenges with open arms. Haha, very splendid (geez, does someone actually use that word?haha!)

Anyway, we're up to something really really great. Can't wait to start ahead.

That's all for now. Hasta la proxima vest.