You. Yes you.

I worked so hard to earn this position. I presented all the evidence that I deserve this title. I am eager to put a positive impression just to show you that I can do the job perfectly. But just because you know I am flexible and I learn things easily doesn't mean you can have me do anything you want me to do, anytime, anywhere, in any way whatsoever. You can't turn me into a slave just because I'm more than super ready to give a hand.

I am JUST there to help. To make things work easier for you. To lessen your load. I did and keep on doing everything because I can physically and mentally help. But you forgot, oh no, you intentionally didn't even say thank you. Did you even realize my worth? No. Did you even see any difference when I'm not around? No. Did you even appreciate all the effort and feel the actual pain you're giving me? Hell no! Na-a. Negative.

If I only saw this coming, I could have been more stiff. I should have not aspire to be more than what I am. I could have been a sloth little bitch who goes in and out without saying hi to you. But that's just not me. I don't want people to underestimate me. I don't even wanna see them looking down on me thinking that is all that I've got. I am born to move mountains (yeah dude! for real) I am so used to atleast trying to go beyond what is expected. The least thing I wanna do is to kiss somebody's ass just to recognize me. Just so you know, I am not a robot. I get tired too. I also limit myself according to what I can and cannot do. Do you realize that? No. I don't think you understand the word 'human' at all.

I know, as a line trainer, I should expect stress at this level. I have additional responsibility more than what I used to have. I'm not complaining about that. I am embracing that reality. I just want you to open your teeny-weeny gory eyes and check if I am still okay. I just want you to see my worth. I just want you to stop abusing my silence.

Why can't I say this to you? Because it's all under your nose you freaking rodent! You should know that without my blabbermouth saying a word! Why in the name of pink scissors (ok,that's just so unnecessary, pink scissors) do I have to throw it at you? You should know that!

You think I'm fine and happy with what I'm doing? well, think again.

What you see is not always what it seems idiot!

oh well, sitting by this window.. I just saw rays of sun peeping through.. Umaga na pala.. >_<