instant rewind

Ok..so let us have a quick review of what happened after 2008 ~i'm not sure if you really wanna know but i'll share it anyway ^_^

January
*it was actually the month of revelation, acceptance and survival ~pain was still freshly baked~

February
*some complicated and big decisions were made. Some changed my POVs. Some made me stronger. This is the month of forgiving and somewhat forgetting (it's really hard to just let it slip away, trust me)

March
*ok fine. You may call me a masochist, a martyr, a woman who wants to take it all and what not but it's really hard to make a firm, honest and unselfish decision if you have to consider a lot of people and things *shout DARNA til fade*

Trust me, I tried hard to be proactive and follow my initial reaction but giving up and sending everything back to wherever they came from is not a wise move. I am not a quitter. Though I saw a microscopic chance of having everything work out fine I still placed my bet in that game called quitter-loser *a game that I surely know how to play * I decided to get additional job ~now I'm starting to wonder, Darna's blood is really running through my veins~ It was fun though. More work, more pay, more happy days!

April
*everything seems to be working fine ~told ya~ a little petty quarel in here and a bit of sweet nothing in there is not bad at all ~really now~ I became expert in doing that wooza thing ~breathe,slowly exhale as you say wooza~

It's a must-try. It works especially if you're loosing your temper and/or trying to snatch yourself back from the devil. Trust me *ok, I'm saying trust me too much I feel like promoting that *thingy* out there

May
*Still doing great almost perfect without those 'god why me' moments. Proved that money can really make you happy. Without it, you're doomed man. Well,so much for the long wait, I was promoted ~yey~ . It's still a sweet life after all.

June
*ok, by now I can strongly say, life is great. Too much of something is bad enough ~ok,where did that come from spice wannabe?haha~ umm,yeah, as I was saying, too much of something is bad enough. I'm getting a little scared because we're sailing so smooth and everything is pink and red. All this bittersweet moments turned me into someone I really didn't imagine I can become.

that was it! I'll keep you posted.

See ya!

starting over..

Haha! Found it. I created this page a year ago (not long enough huh) and I just realized how busy I have been that I wasn't able to keep it updated. My first entry was created April 27, 2008 and guess what, that was also the last ~arg~. I also decided to scratch that out cos it only reminded me of how stressful my life was in 2008.

Well, time to move on. I'd like to start over and leave everything behind. 2008 was so difficult. A lot of tears were shed. I cursed silently out of hatred, anger and pain. Someone was wounded. Someone held responsible for that wound. It was a nightmare. I know it could have been happier and better if I only did my best not to let it happen but I never really thought it could happen to me, to us. I felt really hopeless and miserable. I have never seen the worst in me until 2008 came in. I hate it. I really do and I'm gonna say it again. I hate it. So much for being miserable.

But hey, I just woke up from that nightmare and learned from my mistakes. Letting go is really hard to do and doing it all by myself made it harder. Giving someone another chance might be too risky but being very stiff and unforgiving sounds wicked *confuse*

So here I am, moving on, trying to put everything back to place. Life has never been better until I learned to forgive everyone, forget everything and accept my faults. Everybody deserves second chances anyway..